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24 March 2008 @ 11:57 pm
Drabble - Reita/Ruki  
I don't even know. :x This is strange, but at least its something. I haven't written anything in weeks and I hate hate hate writing blocks Dx I kept re-writing this, so finally I had to force myself to stop or I'd never finish >_>;

Dedicated to my lovely explicit_poetry. I love you.

the GazettE - Reita/Ruki. PG-13; angst, references to sex. 419 words.

It feels like such a cliché; to feel so close and yet so far away to someone, but maybe his feelings are cliché. Maybe his entire life is one big cliché. Sometimes it really feels that way, like it's a big tragic circle of too much devotion ultimately leading to his downfall and destruction.
Maybe he should write a book about that shy and awkward boy he once was (though he sometimes doesn't think he has changed much) who grew up to become a rockstar and sold his soul to the devil he fell in love with. Because that is how it feels, like Ruki is a devil who purchased his soul and won't ever give it back.

It should feel absurd to miss someone you see practically every day, but it doesn't. They never really talk anymore. They talk about lives, about stage outfits, about that new single that band has released, about the weather, about anything, but not anything that really matters. It's like they don't know each other anymore.
The others have noticed of course and they don't like the tension. Uruha talks to Reita, Aoi talks to Ruki and Kai talks to both of them, but they are still not talking to each other.

He is gripping tightly at the sheets, burying his face in the pillow and he feels Reita's warm breath against his neck. They shouldn't be doing this, but without emotional intimacy, the physical kind takes its place. It's stupid and destructive, and they both know it. Yet they can't help it, can't help but to keep this theatre up, can't help meeting up to just fuck. No matter how incredibly meaningless it really is. Maybe they're hoping that the hurt will prove to have some sort of meaning somewhere.

"I miss you." Whispered words over the phone, like it's a big secret when it really should be a well-known fact. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. He didn't call Reita just to state an obvious fact, after all.

There are so many things he could say in return, but only one that feels right. "I miss you too." There are many other things he would like to say, so many questions he would like to ask, but maybe this is all they need right now.
this is where the big daddy livesexplicit_poetry on March 25th, 2008 01:53 am (UTC)


... khrpotyijr9gjdfiodfkm.

I love you.
you drained my heart and made a spade.: Murderprincessfetish on March 25th, 2008 04:48 am (UTC)
I love you too ♥
Akicloudiestrife on March 25th, 2008 02:06 am (UTC)
I liked this. Well written for a drabble ~ Good job!
K O A L A: damn yo fineteh_chaney on March 25th, 2008 02:36 am (UTC)
I'm kiddiiiiing of course <3
You know I love everything you write because you're amazing like that. <33333
EventhoughthiskindamademeD:alittle. Waytogo.
you drained my heart and made a spade.: Reita&Rukiprincessfetish on March 25th, 2008 04:47 am (UTC)
meaningless_art on March 25th, 2008 03:43 am (UTC)

I seriously missed your writing. ;~;

This was gorgeous in a really sad way. Like I sat here picturing this, and picturing the thoughts running through Ruki's mind and I was feeling sad up until the end. It's still sad at the end, but in a slightly.. uplifting way. Like just those words released something out there. Almost like unlocking the door in a sense.

...I overanaylze things. 8D Feel free to tell me to STFU.

But really, I loved it. ♥
you drained my heart and made a spade.princessfetish on March 25th, 2008 04:46 am (UTC)

Oh god, my ego loves you bb ;3; And so do I of course 8D

Like just those words released something out there. That was exactly what I had in mind actually. 8D I'm glad that someone caught it. XD


Thank you so much, I'm glad you liked it~♥
Seph Lorraine: Ruki <3 o2sephlorraine on March 25th, 2008 04:53 am (UTC)
Beautifully written. I am terribly taken by the reality in the aspect of missing someone you see everyday. Very nicely done, though pronoun usage might have thrown me astray once or twice, but maybe you meant to be vague.
you drained my heart and made a spade.princessfetish on March 25th, 2008 05:45 am (UTC)
God, you people are so good for my ego XD;

Thank you so much :) And yes, I was aiming for vagueness actually.
totchi_san_622 on March 25th, 2008 04:58 am (UTC)
Oh wow, I've truly missed your writing. <3 And it's still amazing as always. xD

You know, it's amazing how you can always convey so many feelings into something less than 500 words. O_O

This was so beautifully written. *-* I don't find it strange at all. Made me sad, but I loved it. ^_^
LOVE STRUCK: reimy_turtle_pear on March 25th, 2008 07:40 am (UTC)
awww~ awww~ awww~ its short and sweet and ...sad!!!~~~ but very well written so me loves lots~
あかね: emo-crieswalkin_siesta on March 25th, 2008 07:53 am (UTC)


oh well i still like this xD
sad.SAD. and yes, sad. ToT the "I miss you"s broke my heart.
Kouri Saikoro: alivekouri0201 on March 25th, 2008 11:14 am (UTC)
Whenever I see you name here I go like ... "Wooooaaaaaahhhhh!!!!! I need to read this NOW!!!" ANd though it was unusual to see PG 13 it is still wonderful!!! I like how you write so much...portraying so many feelings within those short drabbles.
Thanks for sharing...it was so sad...and still, beautiful<3
shizuka_no_yume on March 25th, 2008 07:05 pm (UTC)
Wonderful drabble! ♥

Amazing how those few lines could hold so much meaning...*impressed*