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03 May 2008 @ 08:10 pm
Fic - Aibon/Nono  
Pretty sappy shit, but I felt like writing it so yeah. :)

ex-W; Ai Kago (Aibon)/Nozomi Tsuji (Nono). PG; angst.


I saw you on TV last week. You looked so different that I barely recognised you. You've lost a lot of weight and cut your hair. You didn't look as happy as you always were back then though, but I know you've had a hard time. You've grown up too, matured. You're not bouncy Aibon who would do anything for some cake anymore. You're a young woman, an adult, and it almost shocked me to see.
Noa was in my lap the whole time and she immediately started smiling and laughing when she saw you, and I cried, cried and I couldn't stop.
I realised how much I've missed you, how empty it has been without you. You always knew how to cheer everyone up and no one could be mad at you for a very long time. Your name is fitting because you really spread love all around.
You always got to carry the heaviest burden though. You never got the chance to grow up, and when you smoked just to feel more like an adult you were severely punished for it. It broke my heart to hear about everything you've been through, all the pain you've suffered. It broke my heart in a million of pieces and I wish so badly that I could have been there with you, to help you, but you ran away and barely even said goodbye. I understand why now, but back then I didn't. You hurt me so bad, Aibon.
I want to see you again though now that you are back in Japan. I want to know if you are still the same person you were when we were young and naive and thought happiness would last forever.
I love my husband, but you were my first love and you still have a special place in my heart and I just want you to know that.


PS. Being stick-thin doesn't suit you!

A mix of emotions and feelings danced around inside her as she looked down at the letter in her hands. A hand-written letter with pretty, cursive ink - old-fashioned and romantic in a way and so completely typical of Nozomi. In a world with email and other means to communicate through text Nono had always preferred to write letters. She felt that it was way more personal that way, and it was just one of those many things Ai adored about her.

She had read the letter five times now, and she still wasn't sure how she to reply to it. She had always had problems expressing herself in text. Unlike Nono she preferred to tell people things, or do something to show what she felt and thought about others.

The letter from Nozomi brought an onslaught of memories from her time at Hello!Project. It had been good years, and she had got a lot of friends and fans, but in the end the burden she carried had been too heavy and she hadn't been able to take it anymore. The divorce of her parents had hit her hard, and then being involved in scandals and being ridiculed in the press, and then finding out that her best friend and love was pregnant and getting married... She hadn't been able to stay in Japan. So she had fled the country. Cowardly maybe, but she had felt like she was suffocating in too much drama and too many problems.

It hadn't been much better in New York. She had fought with everyone; her mother, the boyfriend she had got in a desperate attempt to forget about Nono, and everyone else around her. She had lost her apetite and with that the pounds had just fallen off of her. She didn't regret going there though. She had needed the break from Japan's cruel tabloids and all the memories.

The only thing she regretted about that decision was not properly saying goodbye to Nozomi, knowing fully well that it would hurt the other girl. She had been angry too, and somewhere feeling that Nono was abandoning her to go and get married and 'become a typical Japanese housewife' as she had scornfully thought at one point. She regretted all those spiteful thoughts, especially now after reading the letter.

And suddenly she knew how to reply to it.

* * *

There was a knock on the door and Nozomi went to open it, her little baby girl sleeping soundly on her arm. The person standing in the door way was so surprising she almost dropped Noa out of sheer shock.

"You know I'm not very good at expressing myself in text..." Ai began sheepishly, but didn't get any further before Nozomi was hugging her as much as she could with a baby in her arms.

"Oh my god, Aibon," Nozomi almost sobbed. "You scared me."

"I'm so, so sorry," Ai murmured back, and they both knew she wasn't just apologising for showing up unannounced.

Nozomi stepped back and wiped her tears, shaking her head and managing to smile. "It's alright, it's alright. Just... you're here. I can't believe it. How did you get my address?"

"I pried around a little. I still have some contacts at UFA you know." A small little laugh and Nozomi was hugging her again.

"You're still... you," she whispered, sounding almost relieved.

"Of course I am," Ai said, smiling wide and it was a pure and real smile of happiness.
♚defying gravitystarbeams on May 3rd, 2008 08:14 pm (UTC)
Ahhh after I saw that interview with Aibon, I was hoping someone would write a fic about it.

Very good and made me teary eyed ;.;
capkitty: W2capkitty on May 4th, 2008 02:32 am (UTC)
Awww, after the first 5 lines I was teary eyed... I usually don't like W pairings but that was just gorgeous for it not to melt my heart! Awesome work!
Mely: Lipsmelinen on June 28th, 2008 09:29 pm (UTC)
I don't know anything about these women, but I know that I still really like your writing style. It's so natural and... uh, makes me lose my vocabularity when trying to describe it? Lol, take that as a compliment because that's what it is. XD